There are so many things in life that no longer matter to me and that is because I look at life differently since I was saved.
Something deep has taken place in my heart and mind and it’s like trivial things in this world are everywhere and it’s really only the golden nuggets that I want anymore.
I don’t want friends, I’m not trying to earn approval or look for outside validation, and I do not wish to aquire physical things in this world.
I know the prize is Jesus because of what He has done for me. I know that all that matters to me is to truly know Him and carry out my special orders to which I honestly feel He has entrusted me to.
So many people do not strive to do what is right, better and or harder or to be continually changed by God, but I do. It is what matters most to me in this life.
I don’t desire many material things but if I am completely honest there are many that I do love to have but luxury has never been my thing or who I am. I don’t require showy or flashy things. I just want to be comfortable with what I have and I want to like what I have.
As far as people go, I do not try to make friends. The right people come into my life when they are supposed to and I have faith in that. Over the years I have watched how God has thinned out my interactions with others and removed people who were not meant to stay or only were there for a short time and a lesson.
People come and go. I do not try anymore to put too much effort into things unless I know that God is orchestrating them or behind them. I do not trust others to have my best interest and I have learned over the years to be wise about who I share things with. People are sinful beings and I wait for God to orchestrate interactions and connections with people.
I watch characters also. I am on the lookout for qualities both good and bad in the people I see around me.
I see many who are two-faced and not authentic and I am wary of those ones. I am careful to watch how people act and if they can be trusted or not. I see many liars and hypocrites around me and I do not associate with them on a deeper level.
Do not get me wrong however, I keep my enemies closer than friends like the saying goes because I don’t let people get close enough to burn me.
I watch my words and make sure that my actions align with how I speak and treat people and that I don’t gossip or give people an opportunity to catch me being the person that is that way. People who gossip are not on my friends list and it’s not a characteristic that I trust. I watch people and let them show me who they are.